I haven’t been around for some time now. I am back to tell you all about how things have been, that was the best idea I had for a come-back post. 🙂
Well, it has been hectic. 😀 I have been a flight freak and crazily gone from here to there due to airport complications- but I have made it back to my university! 🙂 That is the best news for me at the moment since my arrival was like a time lapse event. 😀 Other than that, I have found my way back to my housemate, which makes me the happiest person! 🙂 🙂 We have caught up pretty quickly and started resuming the enthusiastic life of our own. 🙂 I have missed my house here, so it was good settling in and getting things done- I enjoyed it.
And summer holidays! ❤ I guess I can’t talk about summer without mentioning that I literally became a child freak. 😀 I built up my own team of super-crazy and super-fun 20 children and we literally had the happiest moments of our lives together! Waking up with a smile and the feeling of wanting to live another day full of passion and fun for 2 entire months- it is not impossible apparently. They all ranked up to my top 3 favorite people/s in the world. I am still trying to cope with being away from them, but since we are keeping up through videos and calls, it will be alright. 🙂
I honestly do not know how future is going to be like. Even planning for tomorrow seems meaningless at this point for me. Sure, I make plans and think about how things are going to be. But I guess I have let go of insisting on the things I want and planned. I have started to just make plans and then see how life plays out and go along with it. It honestly is too exhausting to pretend if we work hard enough we will finally get all the things we want our way- despite everything and every single thing. I am yet to find out if there will ever come a time where I will force the circumstances so hard that I will have to sacrifice the most important things to me- however, currently, let alone sacrificing the most important things, I don’t even care whether a B plan that I had never ever thought of comes my way and my life goes in that direction. Things will end up happening anyways- it’s better to welcome them rather than denounce life as an enemy.
That doesn’t mean I don’t struggle with things though- I just had a future-identity-crisis-and-worry situation. But then it lasted for a day. 😀 I was quick to remind myself to not freak out over things that are pre decidedly going to happen no matter how much I want them to or not. So I guess I saved myself out of that one pretty quickly. Which again, doesn’t mean that I am not going to have a meeting with my advisor tomorrow to talk about my “future”. 😀
Alright. Those were all the updates. I sure have a lot more in mind, but I am just gonna close my eyes to wake up to my first uni day of my last uni year- so I better be clear-minded and zero-dark-circled.
I’ll see you all in the next post! 🙂